Overwhelmed...

sometimes I don't think I'm adequate enough for the calling I recently received.

I taught my first sharing time today and I felt like it went rough.

Sharing time is a lesson that is taught by a member of the primary presidency to children ages 3-12. I was just called as first counselor in the presidency so it will be my responsible to teach a lesson once a month.

Some of the children in the primary I teach have been baptized almost as long as I am and they are only 11 and 12.

I learned more than ever today that the Spirit is the ultimate teacher and that if I focus on that and allowing the Spirit to teach than everything will work out.

As if the ward hasn't already tested my ability to stretch as a person enough today I was asked to speak next Sunday during sacrament meeting.

I am far from a good speaker. FAR!

I am incapable of controlling my emotions.

This will be my third talk and it is my hope that it will be delivered well.

july will always be one of my favorites...

because it has so much meaning to me.

I could rave about January because that is the first time I finished the Book of Mormon. (2007)

I could remember February because that is when I moved to Utah, which brought lots of depth to my life. Obviously.

I could love March, and I do, because that is the month I was born and met my husband.

To be honest April has never been my favorite. Ha.

I could enjoy May because that's when we got our puppy, who has taught me to be my most patient self.

I could take note of June because that is when I first went to church.

I could honor August because that is the month when everything comes to an end for me.

I could relish in September because that is the month that Heavenly Father sent my husband to this earth.

I could remember October because that is when I learn the most.

I could embrace November because it is always the month that eases my procrastination.

I do also favor December because it is the month I was married in the Salt Lake Temple to my love.

But July will always be one of my favorites. 

Because in July I got baptized. Because in July I recognized the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Because in July I said my first whole-hearted prayer. Because in July I got confirmed. Because in July I get to celebrate my freedoms as an American and as a member of the LDS Church. Because in July I got engaged to my best friend and wonderful husband. Because in July I always get to remember the summer of 2006 and the choices I made to start the path to becoming a better me.

So thank goodness for another July.

tomorrow...

will start my memories of being baptized for five years.

Time flies.

Crazy.

How fitting that the LDS Church launched this today...

the funniest part...

of sharing my experiences with the gospel of Jesus Christ is that they started on this day 5 years ago.

What better way to begin this journal of experiences than to start with the very reason I have learned about this gospel?

It was the summer of 2006 and it was the first day I had seen my LDS friend since she had returned to NYC for a summer full of dancing.

I went out to dinner with her and her mother. The conversation about the LDS Church was mild but would prove to be life changing.

How fun it will be to remember these experiences again by going through the process.